todae went school and discovered the foyer have a cover over the area.i tot 'WA PRINCIPAL SO GOOD.SCARED RAIN MAKE THE FLOOR WET THEN WE CANNOT SIT DOWN ON THE 'NICE AND SOLID FLOOR' then later the mrs sng sae they hosting some event for duno wad..lol..chey!then have lessons then got physics quiz.z.duno how to do.then recess..ate..then go back plaed a blind folding game and i walked to the 3e5s?!dun blame me i am blind :D then slack and after school walked around and take my sweets and hav physics practical.z.so ma fan.then after that went home..oh ya wallace take a blue form 0.0 i tink he plaeing now.lol..haven do my poa..i duno how to do i feel like sleeping now..z..so tired..of this world and homework..of course i wont kill myself i still got quite alot of things to do..todae i go home the bus uncle suddenlty put a t.and i was the onli person that slept in the car and left alone..so when the uncle turn off the tv i noticed there is no sounds i woke and found i am in the interchange,the vehicle parked.i sae u never call me wake up..blablabla..he sae sorry sorry..z..luckily there is another 291 bus..and luckily i have been using bus pass otherwise i will waste 45cents..i have read finish harry potter and the deathly hallows!i need to do homework now..but i duno how to do..i duno wad the poa worksheet is telling me..its seems so difficult to understand,as if the paper is written in another language..its weird though..the paper is in english but u cannot do anything about it..wad about maths?i still left one more question and tomolo have maths..poa tomolo dun hav..but i still need to do rite?i cant left it to last minute..i need to use tomolo to ask people i guess..tomolo have two geog..it is wise to sleep early so i wont get tired during mrs lee lesson?its impossible even if i sleep enuf becos her lesson is a dull.i realli would like to get out of the class room and sleep at the toilet bowl untill the lesson is over..the gravity that have been pulling my eyelids everydae seems to increase ten fold..it is such an agony..not to able to express one and suffer in silence..this is the same situation as in literature..another boring subject..todaes literature is super boring but in the final part it get little more interesting..ms tahiya give two lines and she can intepret a whole load of wad i call 'bullshit' out..literature is for someone who is veri sensitive..not to emotions.but sensitive the words the poets have carefully think and penned down..two sentence approximately 16 words yet is enough to write a essay..even prounociation of words u also can write it down and sae its sounds sinister,evil..zz...schools is a boring thing onli friends kept me on.going to school and suffers teachers lullaby..the quiet atmosphere of mrs lee class.fear to talk and get reprimanded all people is silent.no one open their mouth to chat..everyone seems busy in taking down notes..everyone is listening in rapt attention..okay i lied not everyone jus some..i am not really include in the some becos i always struggle to defy gravity thats pulls my eyelids down which covers my eye,sort of begging me to forget all the stuff i had been trying to absorb,to learn to comprehend..yet this old teacher keeps talking and talking i even use water from my water bottle to dab my eyes and keep awake..its so tough surviving the two periods of every subject i had in school.its pure killing.
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the plan had already started!for daes i have been planing,to dig out the truth that am slowly discovering,to find about that person's thoughts and ideas..i used people even though i said i dun like to be used.but i dun abandon those i used when a new one comes.i stay loyal and kind.i jus need to find out the truth to this current suspicions i been having.off course the people have to agree on wad they agreed to me,do wad they need to do in order to help a poor me :( haha
u need to hate me.i wan u to find me and i will make u hate me.begone evil spirits,making my life full of suspicions and sadness.one after another..y am i having this kind of times?the truth is slowly surfacing up.its hidden long enough and someone have help this truth to resurface as it destroy the chains that held it tight.i am the one whose hacking the chains.wif great effort and foolproof plan no one will understand wad i doing no one will knoe wad i am thinking..i feel more secure alone now.being alone gives me the chance to think about questions,to escape from evil humans that however apeared harmless.its all lies.there are the innocents implicated to it but it doesnt matters now i have to be selfish..totally un-selflessly in order to take care of myself..jus a few more times and i can have a conclusion/the truth!i so proud of myself to have such a flawless and wonderful plan.by this week hopefully i will get the answer i desired,by then its time to sae the name？wait wait..the person still got uses to me :D maybe i will jus be friends a while more.the attiturde hav changed.i souned more bish more rude and more hmm souless..in order to make the person avoid me i have to do it.i have no choice..its going well now..and i repeat i tink i can get the truth out by a week..i need my computer to find out the truth..so those daes which i cant be online i cant do anything about my so called little personal project in finding out the truth whether the person that i once friends wif is actually using me.all people use one another..to kill their time..to pour out their troubles to one another..chatting is considered using too!that is sort of my thinking..y do u chat?becos u are bored.so u 'use' ur friends as a way to diminish the boredness that keep bothering u,making u feel dull and stuff similar.wads my plan?nothing much actually i am always good at concealing myself.not letting people to knoe my secrets unless i purposely leak out some.the coldness..ohh the tone that his/ss and lit teacher been using..i have been using that to the person i wan use my lame tone to talk..to the person-do u feel certain change about me to u in talking in msn as well as in real life?if any of u do feel that i suddenly treat u bad or been veri cold to u then u must tink hard of wad u did recently..the thing u done might have no link for u..but u are the one who are doing it and most humans lack the ability to think for others..to think wad could be happen if they did a thing..who will be affected?who will be sad or annoyed or happy wif u around them?who knoes?i always have wished to have the psychic ability to look at peoples mind.onli this way can i feel secure..to feel safe to feel truely protected..no one can protect me onli i can protect my ownself.everyone else seems onli a tool.an object to help me in complete my life..in schools or working life there is people who appears kind yet evil thoughts and plan have been racing around his or her heads.ready to carry out if they have the chance..to gain rewards..to see u sad..to see feel miserable.even though they get nothing from it but its truely a pleasure to see people whom u dun like suffer and best is have tears cascading down the cheeks.
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i need to change my way of thinking while i was writing my above two quite lengthy paragraphs..tot i could publish a book!lol..so boring at home..going out wif friends..but need go out wif other people..cos some i said have forgotten me in the presence of 'a' but i dun mind..i always noe the truth that i will be left alone..pondering about topics that interest me..i seems quiet but miss tahiya sae that those quiet people who sae jus two sentence can mean alot more then those who speaks all dae long and it meant nothing.do u tink i got split personality?to be honest i onli knoe abit of myself.there is alot more things to discover my ownself as daes went by.i knoe i am selfish.quiet.lame.not handsome.alone.moderately kind.and have been always a nice person on the surface..buts wad hidden beneath me?wads thoughts keep cutting across my so called pure mind in the dae and cause it to be dark and evil in the night?who knoes?do u?one's life motive is to discover oneself.and those who dun understand ownself cant realli sae they have lived enough,cant that they had enuf of this world even though they realli are..they need to knoe wad is hidden..secrets can be hurtful but at the same time can bring great enlightenment to people..i have been writing these post for more than half and hour..how come i keep writing..i am jus recording my thoughts..blog is a great way to spill my thoughts too and i can keep my thoughts well kept and not let anyone knoe wad izzit about..its safe here..my posts.even if a hacker hacks to my account and reads it he or she also wont understand cos i have been thinking all those wad i called fool proof words..but last post i already said the one who making me sort of forgotten is a girl and is in 3e2.so who is this girl who makes me the boy who never harm his friends so sad..of course todae another guy appeared and he is the ava guy member called marcus not the badminton i called kai jie buy for me becos the basketballers have been cutting in but this fucked up marcus straight away cut kai jie line and this piss me off.i will most probaly call my brothers friends to beat him if it ever happens again.but off course i will personally try to punish him first before call for help.that fucking nerd.i will get some blood out of him..i swear.though swearing means nothing i can swear that i am a girl but no one going to believe it cos i am a boy from the age of 1second years old.but this is just a speech..bb i need to close the com and do poa as well as maths..i have been onlining for about four hour..is this the reason that causes my brain to get cranky and making me think alot and making me feel a little emo?hmmm..k i will stop for todae..the plan always continue even in schooll
abouve is written by both of my personality.the sort of good one and the ermm revenge lover one..now this passage is neutral becos i gonna end it..kk..bb..cheers
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